Elizabeth Eileen Jones

An everyday truth..

http://youtu.be/K_OB7d-B1Vw

love you......

March 14, 2012  -  Five Long Years


5 years. And I still can't find the words or the memories in my mind to make this all go away. Time seems to stand still, yet fly by. Or maybe it's me standing still. Waiting to wake up.

My memories aren't very good right now. 5 years and the sadness still taints the beautiful memories I have. Just when I think I can smile, because I see your face, hear your laugh and remember, the pain cuts me in two.

5 years, Lizzie, and my heart still aches to have you back home. There will never be any new memories from hereon. They are simply gestures of planting flowers, sending balloons, celebrating your birthday. Gestures for you.  But, I guess, they're really for me since I have no way of knowing anything about life and where you are, if you are, somewhere, anywhere.

I did plant orange flowers on "that" day. I remember I had put two pots of orange flowers on either side of the stairs, just before "that" day so you would see something pretty when you left in the morning and came home at night. I do remember that. But it hurts to remember.

Loving you with all my heart, soul, and each and every breath I take..........mom

03-14-2011 - Four Years

Still trying to have happy memories.  Today not so successful.  Always the wish I had done this or that.  Memories of that day /this day 4 years ago.  Going over and over every detail.  Saying it out loud.  Feeling anger to chase away the pain.  Missing you Lizzie. 

Easter 2010.........I hugged your bunny this morning. The very last, special friend you bought. I still remember the day we walked into the store and picked him out. You never made it to Easter that year. Did you know that your bunny has a hole in his heart? Yes, he does. I found it one night while holding onto him and thinking about you. He and I are not so very different. Broken hearted and lifeless. It is only when someone comes along and picks us up that we are awakened. Wish you could be that someone. Until then I shall find photos of you on these special occasions and try to bring out the joy of those moments.

 

Forever missing you, mom

March 2010 (3 years)
On the highway you lost your life
you were gone in an instant taken away
So young at only 23
you taught so many lessons in life to others...even at 23

You were caring and compassionate
you loved unconditionally- a very rare human quality
I remember your long red hair
and how you had hardly any freckles
when I felt cursed because I have so many

Your smile was always contagious for me
When I felt sad and you were sitting with me
while I cried
while you silently sat there, I didn't feel so bad

Most reading this would not understand
As they did not know you nor how special
you truly were or the obstacles you had to overcome in life
But honestly I don't care
Because I remember you
and how wonderful you were
and how much you meant to us.

I know in Heaven you are talking
and doing whatever you could not do in life
and waiting patiently
To welcome the rest of us home.

I love you Liz
and you are never ever forgotten.
Your Big Sis-Kate

12-25-2009

Was thinking back on those past holidays we had Liz. Of course mom and dad always spoiled us with tons of presents. Mom and I always made lots of food the older we all got. You always loved the family getting together, opening presents, eating so much we were stuffed and thought we would explode! You always loved the beautiful Christmas trees mom put up every year and for some reason as the years went by I always thought those trees got taller and bigger. The holidays seemed so exciting every year but the past few just don't seem as fun or joyful. I try to remember you would want us to enjoy Christmas together and think about the good times we had and the love. I know you would want us to smile and laugh. You never liked when any of us were sad. I do miss you so much but I know where you are right now. I hope I too will end up in that same place in the end with you.  I love you. Merry Christmas.

Love- Kate

Close to the holidays and I'm remembering the time we went to the mall with Kate and Julia.  Christmas craziness and eating at the food court.  Nothing could slow you down from the thrill of shopping.  Thinking of you now and how you loved this time of year is the only thing that gets me through it without you.  Someday I hope to have better memories without the pain and tears clouding them.  Until that time, my precious girl, I owe you every breath I take each and every day till the day I see you again, because YOU taught me so much about kindness and goodness and love and compassion.  Merry Christmas, Liz.....wherever you are.

October 31, 2009

A vision of you, so tiny and young.  Strolling along, fuzzy and warm; long floppy ears.   

The happiest bunny I'd ever seen.

 

Another Halloween

Pictures in my Mind

Of Days Gone By

Without a Cry

Your Smile...........

Food for the soul.